Susan's Fieldwork Session: Moving Love, Fearful Fear and No! (part 5)
And Discovering Infinite Love, Spaciousness and Exquisite Safety
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My Comments
Susan experienced moving the Shame to Receiving as a complete transformation of the entire pattern. This lets me know we have done a good job identifying the pivot state for this cluster. Still, this kind of wholesale shift is unusual. To make sure we have done a complete job, I lead her through an explicit moving of each of the remaining three states. This will help cement her awareness of the new, ideal states, helping to fully release the old pattern, create more explicit connections among the new states, and integrate the new possibilities.
Moving Love
J: We could draw Receiving right now. Or we can go ahead and move one of the other ones.
S: It almost feels like this did move everything else.
J: Yeah? Well let’s just check in and see what happened, see where the other things went. Let’s check in with the Love. Now that Shame has become Receiving, what does the Love get to be?
S: The Love just gets to be more and more and more. It stays Love, but it’s free to be as big as the universe. It can be as big as it wants to be. There are no restraints on it.
J: So in a perfect world, with access to Receiving, if this part of you were free to be as big as it wants to be, how big would it want to be?
S: Truly as big as the universe, like out into the galaxy, beyond the Milky Way. Huge, it wouldn’t have any boundaries at all.
J: OK. And in becoming beyond-galaxy, infinite universe size, if it were free to take on qualities of any substance at all, would it want to be more like a solid, liquid, gas, pure light, energy, or something else, what would it most want to be?
S: Pure light, I think.
J: And this pure light, what temperature would it want to be?
S: I don’t think it has a temperature, really. I mean, definitely warm contrasted to cold, but it doesn’t feel like light really has a temperature.
J: OK. And what color does it want to be, if it could be any color or colors at all?
S: Iridescent, like all colors.
J: Is there a certain pattern, or a way that these colors are distributed?
S: No.
J: OK. And is it moving at all? Is this light flowing, radiating, pulsing, vibrating, circulating?
S: It feels like it’s going out to infinity, however far that is, and then coming all the way back to me, like to my physical body. And then like all the way out, and then all the way back. Like bringing everything back and then putting it out, and each time it goes out it goes further, brings more back, sends more out, constantly expanding.
J: Great. OK. And what about sound: if you listen to this, what sound wants to be there as a way of more fully expressing its nature?
S: It’s kind of back to the music of the spheres. I think the stars are supposed to sing or make some kind of a sound, so whatever that sound is.
J: All right. Anything else to notice about what this wants to be?
S: I don’t think so.
J: All right. And so from this new place, what feels true, or real, or important?
S: Well in this space, Shame and Fear and No! are not even concepts. They don’t even exist. It’s like they don’t even make sense. They’re not even present. It’s like if it’s August and it’s summertime, the concept of snow is completely irrelevant, you know? It’s 100 degrees, there’s not going to be snow.
J: Right. So what’s important to you about that?
S: Just the expansiveness and the freedom and the possibility.
J: Anything else to notice about what this wants to be?
S: I think that’s it.
J: What name would you like to give it?
S: Infinite Love.
Note: This drawing was made later in our process, after moving all four parts.
Moving Fearful Fear
J: Let’s check in with what happened with the Fear. So now that you have access to Infinite Love and Receiving...?
S: It’s like, if it were fog, it’s like when the sun shines really brightly the fog just disappears, or dissipates.
J: OK. So let’s follow it. So this part of you has a gift for you. And let’s say that the fog does dissipate, but it has the opportunity, from that dissipated place, wherever that is, to contemplate how does it want to come back into the space in and around your body in such a way as to offer you its greatest gift?
...And in doing so, if it were free to take on qualities of any substance at all, would it prefer to be more like a solid, or a liquid, or a gas, or some kind of pure light or energy, or something else?
S: It feels like a soft blanket. Very, like cashmere, very light weight. Not even a blanket; like a cashmere shawl that’s literally, you notice it’s on your skin but there’s no weight to it. And it’s very soft.
J: Ahh. So the temperature is like a neutral temperature, or warm? What temperature would you say it seems to be?
S: Neutral.
J: And if it were free to be any color at all, what color would it most want to be?
S: Kind of a cream color, an ivory.
J: Opaque, translucent, transparent?
S: Opaque.
J: And so the location is like a shawl, or if it could be free to locate itself anywhere, where would it most want to be?
S: It’s maybe six inches away from my body. So it would be as if I could feel the presence of it, but I’m not at all wrapped up or bound in it.
J: Ah hah. Great. And around your whole body? Is it like a...?
S: No, just from my waist to my chin. Kind of like overall where everything else was before.
J: OK. And does it want to be moving in any way?
S: No. It seems to be still.
J: OK. And does it want to have any kind of inner sound to express its nature?
S: Like some kind of soft humming, almost like a lullaby sound or a soothing sound. It doesn’t necessarily have a melody, but just some kind of comforting hum.
J: Anything else to notice about what this wants to be?
S: No. I don’t think so.
J: And so from this new place, if this part of you were free to express in words what feels true, or real, or important, what would it say?
S: You’re safe, and protected.
J: Mm hm. OK.
S: Before, in the very beginning when I was saying it felt like if I let the love in it would just be too much, or overwhelming, this is like, “No. It will never be too much. However much it is, you’re safe, you’re protected. You can let it all in and it won’t be too much.”
J: OK. And what new name would you like to give this?
S: Spaciousness..
Note: This drawing was made later in our process, after moving all four parts.
My Comments
In moving Fearful Fear, we come across a common response when Susan expresses the fog wanting to just dissipate. Again, parts persist. If the fog dissipates from her awareness, it does so by relocating somewhere outside her awareness and we can track it down or invite it back into awareness. To do a complete job of releasing the old and building the strongest new pattern, we will want to track each state to its new ideal.
Moving No!
J: All right. Should we check in with the steel plate, the No!?
S: Yes.
J: All right then. So, you’re getting the hang of this, I’m just going to open up the...
S: Well it feels like the steel plate has gone down under my feet, like it’s this very solid foundation.
J: Mm hm.
S: So if we’re doing the floating out in the universe thing, it’s like the steel plate, now its job is to be the foundation. There’s something to come back to. There’s something solid.
J: Right.
S: So I don’t just expand expand expand expand and never stop expanding. This is when the energy comes back, it comes back and it’s got the home base, so to speak.
J: Got it. So let’s explore, what does the substance want to be? Does it still want to be steel, or...?
S: Yup. It’s the same as it always was.
J: OK.
S: It’s just completely re-purposed.
J: So the same substance and color?
S: Yep, same everything.
J: How about temperature? Still cold?
S: Cool. Yeah, it’s still a little cool. Everything else is warm, so it’s like the cool is a contrast to be the homing beacon or something. It needs to be just slightly different than everything else so it can be easily located.
J: Mm hm. And what about the size and shape of it? Is it the same exact...?
S: Still the same. It literally is that same steel plate. It’s just completely re-purposed.
J: But it’s horizontal now.
S: Right. Now it’s horizontal as if it’s under my feet.
J: OK. And now, any inner sound that comes with this?
S: It’s that same kind of low tone that it was before, and again, the purpose is like a homing beacon or like the signal.
J: And so from this new place, what does part of you bring? What does this part of you most want you to know?
S: That I’m safe, that there’s a place to come home to.
J: Right.
S: No matter how much everything goes out, there’s a big, solid place that it can come back. So it’s really just an exquisite safety. I’m not going to be lost.
J: Great. And what new name would you like to give this?
S: I would say Exquisite Safety, just what it feels like.
J: Great.
Note: This drawing was made later in our process, after moving all four parts.
My Comments
In moving, No! has kept its properties except for location. In its new location it serves a function, Exquisite Safety, that is intimately connected to the Infinite Love. After moving a cluster of states we often see very close, functional relationships developing between the ideal states.
What’s Next:
In the next post, Susan will reflect on the journey she has made and how she anticipates these shifts will influence her experience moving forward.
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